Patience

Maybe I will make a book
one copy
just for myself
my
self
the me of me
she’s been here all along
she’s
I’m
I’ve been here all along
I’ve been here all along

Maybe I
I
will make a book
and I will love that book
as much as I love
Ajike’s book
I will look at the fonts
I will choose something
I will see all the words
page after page
I’ve been here
I will know
I’ve been here
alive
loving colors
and the smell of garlic and sage
bringing me back
me!

That girl is here
I am that girl
here
I am
And that girl
(me!)
is magic
knows magic
the magic to make something
from something
to see what’s there
to listen
and for something
unexpected
to appear

and we would like to
her who is me
the both of us
the one of us
the all of us

what fun it would be
to see it
to make it
to remember it
to imagine it
to hold it
to play with it
with it
which is me
it is also me
I am it
also
in love
in love
loving
learning what is love
how to love
how to be in love
(i am lost
losing
dissolving
and
resolving)
here
am

here
is
ME
I
AM
MEIAM
IAME

This is a moment
Where am I going
Where am I looking

The book is here already
the book is writing itself
I am the book
I am here
The book is me
for me
It was written
It is written
It is being written
I am writing
I write
I read what I am writing
I am reading what I am writing
what I’ve written
what is to be written
what I choose to write
that becomes written
I have been writing
all along
Me has been writing
even
when it felt like a secret
Me has been here
Look around me
You
We
I
am all around